Friday, December 29, 2017

उस गली का आखिरी मकान




दिसंबर की शाम शुरू होने वाली थी.
 गिन के तीन दिन बचे थे साल ख़त्म होने मेंखबर आयी
नॉएडा के छिजारसी गांव में एक महिला का मर्डर हुआ हैजाना पड़ेगा.
छिजारसी नॉएडा के रिहाइशी और औद्योगिक इलाकों के बाद आता है.
यहाँ सड़कें सिर्फ नाम मात्र की है और हवा में सिर्फ धूल मिट्टी
 कार्बन और प्लास्टिक का धुआँ हैएक बेहद ही गंदेलिबलिबेकाले हरे सीवर-नुमा तालाब के बीचो बीच 'टोटली एडजस्टहोता हज़ारो लोगों का शहरी गांव.
हमें क्राइम स्पॉट ढूंढ़ने में काफी वक़्त लग गयाजिससे भी पूछतेजवाब मिलता, "अब क्यों आऐ हो भैय्यापुलिस वाले तो चले गए."
काफ़ी देर बाद हमे वो गली मिल गयी जिसके आखिरी मकान में मर्डर हुआ था
हमारे पहुचने से दो घंटे पहले ही पुलिस और मीडिया का जत्था निकल चुका था.
फ़िर भी उस मकान को घेरे 15 -20  लोगों की भीड़ खड़ी थी.
क्राइम स्पॉट मकान की पहली मंज़िल पर एक कमरे का घर था.
 एक पच्चीस वर्ष की महिला की हत्या गला रेत कर दी गयी थी और नीचे बाज़ार खबरों औरअफवाहों से गर्म हुए जा रहा था.
बालकनी  पर  एक  महिला  शाल  ओढ़े नीचे जुटी भीड़ को एकटक देख रही थी.
 हमें बताया गया की ये महिला पीड़ित की परिजन है
पुलिस पति को उठा कर ले गए है कानूनी कार्रवाई के लिए और फ़िलहाल वो महिला घर की चौकीदारी कर रही थी.
जो दो चार पत्रकार वहा खड़े हुए थे उन्होंने हमे केस समझाया और कहा की 'लव का एंगल है मर्डर में और ऐसा पड़ोसी कह रहे हैं. 
आस पास खड़े लोगो ने भी हामी भरी और हमें बताया की 'औरतका चक्कर चल रहा था किसी के साथ और शायद उसी इंसान ने हत्या की हैं.
मन में दो तीन सवाल सोच कर के हम भी सीढ़ियां चढ़ने लगे ऊपरी मंज़िल के लिएदेखा मोबाइल लिए दो रिपोर्टर अभी भी अपना 'वाक थ्रूकर रहे हैयहाँ बता देपत्रकार बिरादरी जब भी कोई ऐसा केस कवर करती है जिसमे शामिल लोग गरीब तबके के होते है
उनकी हिम्मत उतनी ही बढ़ जाती है
किसी को हड़का कर पूछना, " कितना पैसा कमा लेते हो महीने का", "झूठ तो नहीं बोल रहे?" "घर में क्या क्या कीमती सामान था सब बताओवगैरह आसान हो जाता हैइन्ही पत्रकारों के सामने अगर योगी आदित्यनाथ साक्षात् प्रकट हो जाये तो वो उनके पांव छू ले.
ख़ैर तब तक हम कमरे तक पहुंच चुके थेबाहर ताला जड़ा था.
हमें देख कर महिला ने कहा, "आपको नीचे खड़े लोगो ने तो बता ही दिया होगासभी कह रहे है की उसका चरित्र ख़राब थामुँह पे बोलने की किसी की हिम्मत नहीं हैअगर चरित्र इतना ख़राब ही था तो कल तक क्यों हमारे मुँह लगते थे".
तभी उसने बालकनी से झुक कर नीचे चिल्ला कर कहा, "कौन बोल रहा है मेरी भांजी का चालचलन ख़राब थासामने आओ और बता के दिखाओइधर ही काट देंगे."
गली में अचानक चुप्पी छा गयीवही लोग जो दो मिनट पहले तक पीड़ित महिला की
 कुंडली निकाल रहे थे अब धीरे धीरे अपने घरों की तरफ निकलने लगे.
हम भी अपना काम ख़त्म कर के वापिस अपनी बाइक के पास पहुंचे
किक मारके पलट कर बालकनी की तरफ देखा तो वो महिला अभी भी वही खड़ी थी
मुस्तैद.
उस वक़्त वो अपने परिवार का घर बचा रही थी जिसे हम उजाड़ने पर तुले हुऐ थे.
प्रख्यात नाटककार विलियम शेक्सपियर ने कहा हैं
"पूरी दुनिया एक मंच है और हम बस किरदार."
शायद हम भी बस एक किरदार की तरह अपना काम कर के मंच से उतर रहे थे
मंच पर बची थी तो बस वो महिला.
लालपथराई आँखों से शून्य की तरफ देखती हुई.

 किसी शेक्सपियरन ट्रैजिक हीरो की तरह.

पर्दा गिरता है..






Tuesday, December 8, 2015

December 6- when students are dragged in the politics surrounding an old date.


December 6- when students are dragged in the politics surrounding an old date.


On Sunday morning, I received a press invite on Whatsapp from far right youth group Bajrang Dal, inviting media persons to ‘shaurya diwas’ (valour day) celebrations at Choti Chaupad (a congested market block situated in the walled city of Jaipur) to remember the heroic deeds of karsevaks who demolished Babri masjid on 6 December, 1992.  The press invite further mentioned that the cadres of Bajrang Dal will celebrate the day with  fireworks at Choti Chaupad as a homage to the heroism of the karsevaks. This particular detail got me worried as choti chaupad was prone to massive traffic jams due to the ongoing metro rail construction and whether ‘fireworks’ would be a safe idea. Moreover, I was curious enough to know what exactly these young people who use Facebook, Twitter and Whatsapp extensively think about the date 6 December. Does this day hold any ground for the 20-21 year olds who were born after the Babri demolition?

Before my tenure at Jaipur as a trainee journalist, I was told by my seniors that it is a quiet peaceful city (‘dead’ according to journalists) and it rarely sees instances of communal tension. But then, how long does it take to spark a fire?

 December 6 is a date that has been etched in the minds of millions of countrymen who witnessed the vitriolic atmosphere of the late 80’s and early 90’s across North India. The collective campaign of BJP’s veteran Lal Krishna Advani and Vishwa Hindu Parishad to build a Ram temple at Ayodhya, Uttar Pradesh, saw several riots sparking across the country including that in Jaipur. The pink city could not escape the hate tirade and the communal violence resulted in the death of 60 people in 1989.

This date evokes extremely polarized opinions among political factions even after 23 years of the demolition. The Left front sees it as a national shame, a blot on the secular fabric of India whereas right wing groups observe it as ‘valor day’ in remembrance of the efforts of Karsevaks to build a Ram temple.    

I also happened to receive another press invite for 6 December from the local student leaders of the National Students’ Union of India for a blood donation camp being organized in Rajasthan University. Incidentally, this day also marks as the death anniversary of Bhim Rao Ambedkar, the champion law maker who fought against the hierarchy of the upper castes.

I decided to attend the blood donation camp in the morning hours so as to have an idea whether students really understood Ambedkar.

The ‘mega’ blood donation camp that was being held in the university turned out to be a damp squib as a total of 98 students ended up donating blood. The organizers cited RU’s ongoing semester examination and ‘marriage season’ in Jaipur as the reasons behind this low turnout. 

The venue of the donation camp, Humanities Hall, appeared as a political meet as student leaders and their supporters easily outnumbered the regular university students

“Students had IBPS and SSC entrances today, plus there are exams going on in colleges. We expected a low turnout. Also, many of our female friends are attending marriages across Rajasthan. We need to have better management skills to attract more crowd next year”, said Roshan Mandotiya, a former students’ union president and the convener of blood donation camp.

But when asked about the efforts of Ambedkar in the making of India as a country, majority of the student leaders failed to give an appropriate response. So much so that a vocal supporter of a particular student leader referred to Ambedkar as ‘Balasaheb’ (Bal Thackeray) instead of ‘Babasaheb’.

Apparently, anybody who has witnessed student’s elections at Rajasthan University could decipher that the blood donation event was nothing but a warm up for the aspiring student leaders before the next year’s polls. Aspirants get to meet the big wigs of NSUI and these ‘events’ are an opportunity for them to build ‘contacts’.  This year, NSUI’s candidate Satbir Chaudhary had the won the post of president and the party is considered to have a stronghold in the university’s power circles.

As the day progressed, I decided to attend the other event. 

At the congested Choti Chaupad, 70-80 people had assembled around an electric pole. The makeshift venue was heavily guarded by Jaipur police officials.

Around 15 to 20 young men of Bajrang Dal were seen organizing the small crowd that had assembled to listen to the speeches of various Vishwa Hindu Parishad campaigners.  Portraits of late VHP veteran Ashok Singhvi and Ram temple model were hung on the pole, underneath which, a local campaigner for the VHP, Devi Prasad Dubey, addressed the small crowd.

“Earlier, Ayodhya used to be the capital of world and today it has been reduced to nothing due to the coward politicians. Building Ram temple is our moral and religious duty. Where are the sons of the proud Bharat Mata?  It is the youth that has to mobilize the Hindu masses to ensure the construction of Ram temple”, roared Dubey amidst chants of ‘Jai Sri Ram’ from the supporters.

Abhishek Yadav, a 17 year old Bajrang Dal member and student of a private engineering college, was busy clicking selfies with his college friends Sonu Mishra and Ajay Rotilla at the venue. Yadav and his friends boasted of organizing the ‘shaurya diwas’ in record time span.

When asked whether he has come to celebrate a mosque’s demolition, he replied, “We have come here to protest against the demolition. Not of the mosque but of the grand Ram temple that the barbaric mughal rulers had removed to erect a mosque. For centuries we have suffered due to these monstrous outsiders. It is time that we resurrect Bharat and build the temple where it belongs. Bharat will rise and karsevaks will travel to Ayodhya again.”

When asked whether he and his friends were willing to travel to Ayodhya to build Ram temple, the answer was an emphatic yes with chants of ‘Ram lalla hum aayenge, mandir wahi banayenge’.

“We have travelled to Ayodhya several times in the past for vacations. I know this time it’ll be different but we are prepared for it”, said Ajay Rotilla, another Bajrang dal member.

But wouldn’t a trip to Ayodhya hamper their studies?

To which Sonu Mishra, a classmate of Yadav, replies, “Studies are not a concern, even our parents want us to build the temple in Ayodhya”.

I also spoke to the Jaipur Bajrang Dal’s chief Kuldeep Pareek who was busy preparing the event’s schedule. Pareek, a local politician who also has ties with VHP, considers ISIS’s invasion in India as the greatest threat to the country.

“We have to keep encouraging the youth so that they realize their duty towards their motherland. Ram mandir will be constructed at all costs and it is the students who will make this happen. If we are not prepared then ISIS’s invasion is inevitable”, said Pareek.

When asked whether 23 years later, 6 December would hold any value for the youth of today, Pareek appeared to be confident of his efforts towards not letting the young generation forget about the demolition.

“Thousands of years had passed but our brave Karsevaks did not forget their religious duty and demolished the mosque. 23 years appears a very small time period when you compare it to the centuries of oppression done by outsiders. We will have to pull the youngsters out of Facebook and Whatsapp and remind them of the valour that our ancestors displayed on this day”.

After my reporting task was completed, I enquired about the fireworks that were supposed to happen at Choti Chaupad to celebrate the demolition.

To that, Abhishek Yadav’s reply was, “Can’t you hear it? This is the firework”, while referring to Devi Prasad’s fiery speech. He further added, “the real firework is yet to happen”. 
This was Bajrang Dal, an organization trying its level best to somehow stay relevant in the political arena.

I had also spoken to various other students of Rajasthan University in the afternoon regarding the importance of 6 December. Majority of them were unaware of its history and a very few could understand the politics around it.

 “Today’s students have no clue regarding this date nor do they wish to know more about the history behind the babri demolition. We need jobs and better study opportunities in India. I am pretty sure that a temple will be the last thing in our long list of necessities”, said Dron Yadav, a student of law College.

In my opinion, India has seen enough communal violence since independence and 6 December is yet another date we have added in our long list of ‘national shame’. This old date has being dragged for years in order to seek political mileage and it might prove almost impossible to make the 20,21 year olds to pay heed to it any more.

But the most reassuring statement of relief came from Snigdha Gupta, another student of the university who was hurrying towards the examination hall.

“For me, as of this moment, 6 December is the day I have to write my semester papers. Everything else can wait”

Monday, August 3, 2015

murder in the basti.

It was 8’o clock of that foggy december evening. 

Shiva was staring at the narrow ‘puliya’ for more than a minute now. It was a makeshift bridge made with cement sacks and red bricks held loosely with a metal wire over govindpuri drainage. The puliya was the only link connecting Shahi basti to the capital city. 
Underneath it, ran black water with plastic waste, animal carcass and human excreta, all flowing eventually to meet the Yamuna. The metro station was hardly hundred meters away and despite the fog, one with a decent eye sight could read the train’s destination station displayed on the driver’s coach.

Shiva stood behind the first cement sack, measuring her chances. The stench over there was overwhelming but she continued to stare at the dimly lit basti situated at the other end of the bridge. With a hand pressing her nose with a handkerchief and the other holding a bag, Shiva began to walk. 

But all of sudden, she noticed a billboard hanging on a nearby electricity pole- 

'Jinnnat Babaji- one stop solution for the disheartened lot. Come to me if all other means have failed to fulfil your inner desires. What doctors fail to do, I can do it with my djinn.’’ 

Babaji was making news in the slum. A 55 year old tantric who claimed to possess a genie in his body had created an uproar in the locality with his theatrics. Fables of his antics had been doing circles with people claiming that he eventually possessed his clients and punished them if they failed to do what he asked. And they weren’t just rumours.


12 year old Karim, who ran a small cycle repair shop in the basti, was missing for the past few weeks. His mother, a migrant from Mirzapur in Bangladesh, had consulted babaji to get rid of her son’s addiction to charas. Babaji had asked for Karim to be put in his supervision for two days as he claimed that the ‘djinn’ would eventually get rid of ‘shaitan’ charas dwelling in the body of the boy.

 Four days later, Karim was nowhere to be found. Faruqa, his mother, was told by babaji’s aides that the ‘charas shaitan’ in her son’s body was defeated by the djinn but babaji couldn’t stop Karim from running away. 

“It was for his own good”, was the tantric’s answer.

Nobody in the basti could dare to inform the police. That was the one hard and fast rule of Shahi basti. Police help was out of bounds. Yes, the rickshaw pullers, street hawkers, eunuchs and low level peddlers did pay the cops their regular cut but the police was prohibited to enter the basti. The local MLA, a sitting politician for 10 years, never really took notice of the slum. For him, his territory ended at the puliya that connected shahi basti to his constituency.
  
A long and distant horn from the nearby metro train finally disrupted Shiva’s thoughts. It was this babaji from whom she had to extort the pending drug money for her boss.

She knew exactly what babaji’s fabled djinn was. 

Clients who visited babaji’s clinic were given small but regular doses of cocaine that resulted in extreme hallucinations. Babaji’s aides would then demand money from the client’s relatives in order to shoo away the ‘shaitan’ that had dwelled in the body of their loved ones. The de-addiction phase would last for days until the patient was strong enough to walk on his own. That was one grand façade that babaji ran with the help of Shiva who regularly supplied him cocaine smuggled from neighboring states. 

Shiva started walking over the narrow puliya, carefully lifting her saree to ankle length, stepping over one cement sack to another until she reached the  basti.

Babaji’s clinic was located at the end of the narrow dingy lane and surrounded by a few kaccha houses and an age old minaret. As she walked through the grimy lane in the dark, Shiva could recollect little memories of the time she had spent here. 

Nothing had changed from the day she left shahi basti to look for better livelihood means. The minaret still reminded her of the folk songs her mentor used to sing staring at the broken, rustic glass art that was attached on the roof top. And she used to rehearse with him day and night dreaming in that minaret of a childhood she wished she had. 

Though she never wanted to leave the basti but what livelihood chances a eunuch had in those days. Neighbors suspected her of witchcraft and what not. Children mocked her and threw stones at her whenever she stepped out of her kaccha hut. 

But in her heart, she knew this basti was too small for her wings. Packing her little trunk, she walked over the little puliya to work with a group of gypsy eunuchs at local platforms and bus stations….

There was a firm knock on the rusty old door. A yellow coloured pamphlet of the bearded babaji was stuck on it. 

The door was opened by his aide Lalla, a strongly built man in his forties.

“why are you here?”

“had to meet babaji. My sahib wanted to discuss new consignment.”

“wait here.”

After a minute or so, Shiva was finally let inside. 

Babaji’s little den comprised of two three carpets laid across the floor and a small tube light flickering on the roof top. His clinic smelled of bleach and it appeared as if the rooms were scrubbed with soap water every few hours.

A short heighted man, wrapped in a thick shawl walked in the room. He limped from his left leg taking measured steps towards Shiva.

This was babaji. 

The fabled tantric who could cure any possible disease, illness or disability known to mankind. Though his limping appeared slightly ironic compared to his superfluous claims. 

“Shiva, my child. Why have you come here? ”

“I know. I am not here to deliver maal. Sahib wanted to discuss something important.”

“Say”

“Not in front of Lalla. Tell your dog to wait outside.”

‘Clink’, Lalla drew out his knife. Babaji gave him a stare and Lalla was out of the room in a second.

“well, begin now. ”

“Sahib has asked for the pending money. ”

“Business is tight these days. As they say, ‘hawa garam hai’. I need a few more weeks.”

“no. nothing. You will deliver the money right now. ”

“what is the urgency, beta?”

“sahib’s mood swings. I don’t know, I don’t care. But I need the payment now.”

Babaji began to laugh. The deafening echo pierced through her eardrums.

“what makes you think that Shera will be humbled by a filthy eunuch? You little piece of shit, I won’t pay your sahib a single dime. He thinks he can remain hidden behind the curtains while her little bitch, this cheap whore, runs the drug show? I fucking know who he is. Vilas Mehta, MLA sahib from govindpuri constituency. Your sahib!” thundered babaji. 

Shiva felt a slight shiver down her spine. She could hear the slow whistle of a pressure cooker from the neighbouring house. She had drawn the first blood and she knew it. 


“enough of this shit”, said Shiva drawing out a country made pistol from her bag. 

Babaji gasped in horror. His eyes twitched as sweat drops from his forehead fell on it. He slowly put his hand on his twisted left leg.

Shiva’s eyes were shivering with rage but her body was still as a rock. True to her name, she, at that moment, resembled a creation of contradictions. 

And it was her wrath more than the gun that was terrorizing babaji. Lalla was probably standing outside his house but it was impossible to alert him without letting Shiva go berserk on him.

“put the gun down shiva beta.”. he pleaded in a meek voice. 

The old tantric who was thundering moments ago had turned into a meek rabbit.

“No, I won’t. I am not here for the money anyway. I am here to kill you. What did you do with Karim? That little boy you gave charas gola every other day for free and turned him into an addict. Tell me.”, she raged.

“How does it matter to you? You have been sending maal to us through your courier eunuchs and street magicians since years. Why do you care who we sell it to. ”

“Shut up you old fuck. You have been running organ racket in your little clinic and you think no one will notice. You skinned that little Karim like a pig and then sold his parts to an agent. Didn’t you?  In fact, you are the reason behind those missing children from the nearby villages. You lure them to the minaret and then have them drugged. And that dog of yours, lalla, he does the ugly part of hacking and disappearing the body. Right? ”, she yelled at him.

“Does Sahib wants me dead too, Shiva.? ”

“Yes. He got to know about Karim. And he has send me to kill you. You raise your voice even for a secondw and I’ll start pumping your body with bullets. You know shiva doesn’t give empty threats. ”

“That’s a lie. Vilas sahib wouldn’t give a fuck about that little Bangladeshi rat or other gutter rats getting disappeared. You know why? Because he was the one providing me dealers for my little business with organ doctors. You see, sahib never really thought of you as anything more than a cheap eunuch. For how many years have I been a customer for you? Why has the eunuch who could part her legs even for pigs and dogs started behaving as sita. I knew your mentor, that half man you used to call father. And I still remember the day he begged in front of my house for hours asking me medicines for his ruptured vagina. I know your lot  and how I wish to hack you all in little pieces. You have been handing me drugs for years and now you have come to my den to threaten me. All for that little Bangladeshi rat I killed. I can provide excellent contacts for y..  ”

Shiva gave a slight pull to the trigger and spoke calmly. 

“one more word and I will kill you.”

“listen beta.”

Baam Baam Baam ! 

Three bullets hit babaji on his face one after another. All on the forehead forming a big gaping hole between his hair and eyes. The old tantric fell on the floor with a loud thud as bits and pieces of his brain were strewn across the tiny room.

No sooner had babaji fallen on the floor, Lalla rushed into the room brandishing his knife. 

“don’t you dare move, dog. I will not address you by your pet name. Put down the knife and sit on the floor. I need to kill you as well.”

Lalla dropped the big nepali khukri on the floor with a loud clank. He however refused to sit.

“You killed babaji. Did Sahib order the hit, Shiva? He had businesses with us other than your cocaine.”

Shiva gave a smirk.

“I already killed Sahib two hours ago."

"What ! Why ? What for ?"

"Karim was more than a rat to me, he had signs of a eunuch. His mother Faruqa knew about him and wanted us to take good care of the boy. We don’t forgive anyone who attacks our clan. Now sit down motherfucker or I’ll blast that sweaty little sack of yours.”, said Shiva pointing her gun to Lalla’s pelvis.

Lalla sat on the floor cautiously and closed his eyes.

Baam!

Moments later, Shiva walked out of Jinnat babaji' s clinic, holding the pistol in one hand and her bag in the other. 

A small crowd had gathered outside the clinic after the gunshots. But nobody dared to stop Shiva. Some were too scared of the gun. Some got embarrassed by her sexuality and some repelled by her appearance. But nobody could dare question the eunuch.
Soon, she reached the narrow puliya.

Shiva gave a quick glance back at the dimly lit basti, took out her handkerchief to cover her nose and started walking briskly to catch the last metro.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Cricket and the talking Elephant.

Jugal was batting on 36.

That bookie's words echoed in his ears,

"you need to lose your wicket in the 19th over. and don't worry, its just a Ranji match. There is no media hype here; so obviously there are no chances of any investigation. plus, you do need that flat in Noida. don't you?. remember. 19th over."

The bookie was quite right.

A one bedroom flat in Ghitorni was certainly not what a Ranji level cricketer deserved after so many years of faithful cricket. He needed to pay his son's school expenses and there was a special summer camp in the coming week. He still remembers Rahul's dejected face when he couldn't afford an aquarium for his last birthday. No. this is not what his boy deserved. not this time.

"remember. 19th over"

The sun was glaring and his stomach churned with hunger as one sandwich was all he had since morning.

He made up his mind, took a fresh guard and prepared himself to face the 19th over.

As the clocks turned to five, the umpires finally called the day off. Jugal was standing unbeaten on 103. His team was in a commanding position now.

As he came back to his one bedroom flat in Ghitorni, he could hear his mother reciting an age old fable to her grandson Rahul, " and then the sailor turned and replied firmly to the monster, I am not selling my integrity for your talking elephant. you can't buy my soul".

Jugal was in tears.

Infatuations and Encounters.

I looked up to google to get me this word- infatuation. not that I wasn't acquainted with it, but then our lives are a sum total of borrowed words...a few syllables here and there ..and lo! the ordinary human brain has conjured and derived the biggest secrets and lies of our existence. now coming back to infatuation.
In my 22 years of existence, I have time and again found myself to be in deep admiration/captivation/love? with certain people. these certain people, are pretty ordinary ones, people I am somehow related with and also with those I am not. the reason I have so many synonyms is because I find myself unable to vomit out my feelings. to say I love them all would be an understatement as the word love itself is pretty much overrated. tell me how else am I to describe my five seconds of obsession for a 50 years old malyali woman who has been teaching, feeding, nurturing generations of utterly clueless kids(and I was one of them)  in the same school for the past twenty years. or  the autorickshaw wallah I shared a bidi with, who has left his wife and a boy back in his village so that he could toil here in this cold city. in his words, "bhaiyya ji, hume apni lugai ki bahut yaad aati hai. dilli me kuch nahi rakha hai". he was hopelessly in love. and so was I. with him, his wife, son and his small world . I can't just proclaim my 'love' for that cab driver. no! that is not what the movies and literature has taught me. Loving him would be an act of rebellion against the very sponsored dreams I have been fed via popular means. The same impulse I've also had for various other people in my life. be it my mother who still hasn't lost her warmth and smile in these trying and tiring times or my sisters who would be the last humans to judge me(ever) or my friends with whom I have shared countless memories or that woman who helped me tie my laces in the metro or those random yet fascinating faces behind the window panes in dtc buses. I've had my share of infatuation with all of them.
 I also wish to narrate a small incident here which occurred a few weeks  ago. I was travelling back to my rented room in north Delhi at 9'o clock on a december night in a rickshaw when suddenly I heard a loud screeching noise. Seconds after, a bike rider was seen lying in a pool of blood.  we rushed to his rescue and what followed after that was complete chaos. people were shouting and cussing at each other, asking others to dial ambulance while a few of us picked him up and were examining his wounds. he had lost two teeth, had a deep slash on his forehead, was unconscious and bleeding profusely. regardless of his present condition, it was pretty certain that his life was in grave danger without an immediate medical help. I started to dial the emergency number for ambulance when all of a sudden a young woman came up to me and asked  to put the bleeding guy in her car. there were at least a dozen people with access to an automobile but none of them had the basic will to offer their's. we quickly carried him to her car. soon,  a police patrolling jeep came up to the scenario and took him to the nearby hospital. Now I fail to recollect the bodily texture of this young woman as all I remember of her was this  certain and commanding voice. she gave me five seconds of immense infatuation. for five seconds, I felt as if I could love her in a thousand different ways and  in a thousand different worlds. I don't even remember that voice, it has faded in my subconscious. but I do remember those five moments of pure joy. What she did was only basic human courtesy and  I did not fell for her one kind act.It was her voice. A soft dictation in the midst of a complete mayhem. the kind of voice you can trust with your eyes blindfolded. I did not fell for her, at all. it was her voice. I was smitten by it. I don't even wish to go back in time or for her to meet me again. that would finish and destroy the immense charm of those moments. wouldn't it?
maybe that is what being alive in this world is. loving bits and parts of people and asking none in return. I see them rising in love every single day. and it makes me fall for them. again and again.